The Internet is a strange place. It’s full of inspiration, information, opinions, ideas and experiences – some are familiar, and some yank us from our comfort zones, introducing us to things we could have never imagined.
With blogging, it’s a simple matter of finding that perfect niche.
Simple. Riiiiiiight.
Sometimes, a voice within rushes out with a vengeance, attacking the keyboard through pounding fingertips.
It feels refreshing to hit Publish, to go back and read the words that hit you at your core and then learn that they find resonance with others.
Blogging magic.
Other times, you twiddle your thumbs to the time of the blinking cursor, feeling the urge to say something but totally unsure of what needs to be said.
Infertility and pregnancy and even NICU life were easy for me to write honestly about. I have no problem sharing my deepest and darkest with the world as long as I’m the only one who would face the potential wrath of The Dissenting Internet Reader.
Motherhood is different. My experiences are no longer my own, especially since I’m with my family 95 percent of the time. My feelings are more raw and relatable than ever, but I’d hate for them to read about some difficulty I’ve had as a parent and interpret it as a difficulty with them as people.
And so I stick to the happy, the gushing, the pride. While my writing is far from being short of emotion or excitement, it does fall short from lighting that spark that connects to readers.
Truthfully, that spark is fun. It’s cool to see strangers take away something from what I’ve said or done.
I just don’t know how to find that spark again, and I wonder if I ever will. I’ve gotten lost in my blogging journey, and I’m not sure how to find my voice again.
Just be yourself, Jen. Do what you can, share what you want, enjoy your life, and love your kids. We understand that. We may be internet strangers, but we love you none the less! And you’ve done everything for your son and daughters. They’ll know that truth when they’re older because of this blog and as we all know, no kid is 100% bliss all the time. You can stick with the truth and it still be kind. You’ve shown us that over and over again.
Love ya!
Zona
I feel the same way since I’ve gotten pregnant. I hope I get more inspiration after this is all done.
I have totally been feeling this way for a couple of months now. I feel like nothing is relevant enough to blog about and that I just don’t have a voice when I am writing. I don’t know how you get back out of it. I know I have loved reading your blog and hearing about your life with PB&J. Hope you keep writing, even if it’s the little moments
AMEN.
that’s all i have to say because my fingertips are pretty silent this week too.
You’ll find it again. I understand the lack of spark as I’ve suffered from it many times. It always comes back eventually.
Happened to me too and now I just don’t feel like blogging. I can’t blog about the real raw stuff and therefore I feel gagged and have nothing to blog about. I’ve lost my spark for it and haven’t blogged in over a month.
I’m with you…I feel as though I blog so often for myself, because there are very few comments, despite traffic.
I think when you do blog about family…you have to make a decision to either be true to yourself and risk others opinions of what you write {particularly about them, if applicable} or limiting what you write.
Ebb and flow? You have been running on some high energy experiences for over a year, turning a corner? I am willing to bet you will be writing about what is around that corner soon. New experiences outside of the comfort of hospital, home. Taking walks, swimming and backyard fun, maybe even a beach trip, they will all come soon and inspiration will be derived.
You do not have laringits of the fingertips. Your little ones have redirected your spark. It is still there. Your little ones are also refilling your well of inspiration. Your journey path may be a little off but maybe it is forging a new way and all your spark will return when you least expect it and It maybe not what you think you should blog about but what someone needs to hear.
Keep blogging and all will be revealed. One day at a time. BIG HUG!!!