This started out as an e-mail to a friend. Then, before I hit send, I realized it would fit so much better here.
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To: Friend Who Would Understand
Subject: Sometimes I hate blogging
Message:
I love blogging, actually. Sometimes I just hate blog comments. Nice ones. Like today. Beacuse I’m having a Day with Angry Infertile Feelings, and I want to blog about it because it’s important for people to know.
Sometimes I just don’t want the (((((hugs))))) or the “I love you”s or the “I’m sorry”s.
Sometimes I just want to spout off my anger and have the satisfaction of leaving people feeling as helpless as I feel. Sometimes I want nothing more than wide-eyed stares and clamped-shut mouths. Because you know what? Sometimes nice comments only make me feel worse.
i would bitch slap infertility for you if i could…. is that better?
We’re both having a day. We should go throw rocks at something…or just throw rocks and yell and cry.
::blink blink::
I know what you mean. Sometimes you just want someone to say….”Gosh that really f-ing sucks” instead of trying to make it all better. I always tell my husband, when I spout off about something I don’t want you to give me an answer or make it all better, I want you to just listen and acknowledge my feelings. Sometimes you just need to let it all out, no answers needed. Hang in there!